Life keeps pace with the world even when we do our best to keep the world out.
I have found myself literally "running on empty" as I am traveling from one point to another in my car. My car is kind to me and does not need to be flashing and dinging to warn me I am running on fumes. This has occurred at least once a week over the past month - yes, once every week. And there is the added pressure of accumulating points with Giant Food Company to lower the price of gas at the pump. The balance I am attempting to achieve is shop at Giant - earn enough points to lower the pump price by 20 cents per gallon (this is usually at least 2 shopping trips for groceries) and the most important part of this equation - do not run out of gas!
All four times the ding and flashing gas symbol came on - I prayed - it was no longer about reaching a Shell station who was the points master with Giant - it was "allow me to coast to the nearest station and put $5.00 in to keep this car moving!"
Often I paid a much much higher price for the $5.00 purchase - I could have easily gone to a less pricey gas station for the $5.00 purchase of gas and gotten more mileage for the dollar!
I do not do this in other areas of my life - I have over the years, but not recently. I try to keep the home well stocked with essentials and non essentials. I take care to not allow the paper which comes in pile up and I do clean - not on a schedule like my best friend - but I clean my home.
The whole points for lower prices for gain vanishes when the truth is there is no more gas in my car.
The whole say my prayers, allow spirit to fill my life vanishes when there is no room to fill completely up with blessings.
I feel as though I am running down my to my reserve tank of faith. I do believe in the unseen and in the power I often call on; yet, at times it can take very little for my light to flash danger and my bell to begin to ring in distress!
I hear the new charm "Too blessed to be stressed." I honestly must admit, I do not know what this means. I am blessed, to some, too blessed - HONESTLY?! I AM STRESSED!
A friend once was very honest with me and told me who it was who lived in my gut which made it swell and become an ugly mass - and at least another "it" has joined the first one. They take up too much room, and I am therefore running on empty because I cannot fill completely up with the blessings I am given each moment of my life. I can fill up with spiritual energy only in the space the rest of my gut will allow. This space decreases each time one of these gut suckers
rears it's ugly head to say "pay attention to me, time to remind you, I am still a part of your life!"
I decided on Friday, though these two menaces will remain there for a while longer, due to lack of resources to permanently remove them, I could still take charge of my gut and I did not need to feed the two anymore!
If I put them on the edge of my gut, I could fill up my gut with nourishing and healthy food. Nutrition for my body and my spirit.
I need to admit I am too blessed to be ....... but I also must bless and value myself.......
